Hw 17 First thoughts on unit.

  I have had experiences in the past with illness but not many with deaths. When i was younger i got the tip of my finger and nail cut off with the door. I was too scared and did not want surgery. Therefore i let it grow on its own. I was disgusted by it though so my mom would clean it for me. Not once did i look at it until it started healing. The only experience where i had to stay in the hospital was with a ruptured cyst. The pain was so intense i needed to take tons of pain killers. They put me under ivy. The death experience i had was with my great grandmother. She was in her 80's. I'm not exactly sure what the real reason was but i know that she had many illnesses that lead to her unfortunate death.
       I wasn't taught a specific way of perceiving death or illnesses. i know god has given me the opportunity to be here, so there must be a reason for it. Just like living, death is a part of life. We don't know when our day will come, we just know that it will. My family knows it's part of life that's why i view that way. Although, there are such things as illnesses that can shorten your life time. Unfortunately, illnesses affect one in different ways depending on what you have. if your lucky the illness will be temporary but if unlucky it can be the reason for your death.
       An unusual perspective i have of death is getting shot or getting hit by a car. For some reason every time i am outside sometimes i feel strange and unprotected. I feel like someone is going to hurt me. I don't know if its just my imagination i don't know what it is but i feel like getting shot is one of my great fears.If i could choose my death i would totally pick to die in my sleep. A greater fear i guess i have is dying in pain. I want to die in a calm, peaceful, and painless way. I don't want to hurt i just want to not wake up one day. I know it would be a happy death.As for my health i don't think i have any unusual perspectives. In my life time i hop to not encounter myself with any life taking illnesses. I want to live a nice life.